i am so frustrated with myself.. so angry, so disappointed, so ridiculous.. so lost..
i came to japan with big dreams.. dreams that may sound silly to a lot of people but i cannot imagine myself doing anything else.
it's something that i've wanted from a young age.. for a long time.. i'm working for it hard.. i've sacrificed a lot of things.. a lot of good things to chase this dream..
なのに、when it's my time to shine, i just mess up everything.
i had a small live show today and i really stuffed it up.. forgot the lyrics.. played a wrong chord.. could anything go worse..
i'm just so angry with myself..