For most of my life, I have struggled with my weight. I've always felt ugly, uncomfortable and unhappy with myself. I basically accepted the fact that I would be fat forever and no guys will ever like me. 3 years ago, when I hit my all time highest 88kg, I made the decision to do something about it. I must say I've tried almost every diet: yoghurt only diet, no dinner diet, no meat diet, low calorie diet etc. With inconsistent light exercise here and there, I manage to somehow lose 10 kilos. However from here I hit a plateau, no matter what I did, I could not lose the weight and as time went on, it was harder and harder to resist the temptations around me.
Decided that it was time to get some professional help. My mum agreed and I signed up for Jenny Craig. Through Jenny, I managed to lose another 8 kilos in 4 months. Jenny's program was easy to follow but after so many months, their menu was getting boring and it was getting more and more expensive. So I left, weighing at 70kg.
After that, I went to Japan for an exchange. I thought I did well with my weight loss but seeing all the skinny Japanese girls, I felt really big and uncomfortable. I started dieting again. My usual bento was twice the size of what a girl would normally eat so I told my host mum to make me a very small bento instead to bring to school so that my girl friends wouldn't laugh at me. I ate less overall and went to the school gym once in a while to tone up my body (and check out boys haha). Over the year, without trying too hard, I managed to shed another 10 kilos, bringing me to my current weight of 60kg. Of course I have had my ups and downs, I even rebounded back to 66kg once but I managed to shed back to 60kg.
I feel better, and I really don't think I look all that bad. But still I know it's not quite enough for what I want to do. And so, as of today, I have made my mind to seriously start my diet again!
10 kilos in 2 months, in preparation for a very important meeting.
Ganbarou!!
Rei
